Know why?
Because boys.
That's why.
Stupid. Unreadable. Idiotic. Wonderful boys.
One in particular, really.
Gah, I'm an idiot. I love and hate to be around him all at the same time. When I see him, I just stop thinking sometimes, and then I act like a complete and utter ditz, and I don't know what to do with my awkward self because my limbs decide that they don't want to work properly any more.
I'm just scared. Scared that I've already ruined the crap out of it already. Every time he has asked me to dance, I've turned him down (even though on the inside I was screaming 'yes') , and now he doesn't even bother. It hurts, but it's relieving because I know that I won't have to bother with it anymore... but at the same time... I wish I did.
I hate being a teenager.
Especially a girl.
I'm going to go sleep, now. Maybe things will make more sense in the morning.... As if... it's been this way for months.
Goodnight.
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